Okay, just give me a job where I sit behind a computer all day...

Well, there has been lots of drama in my life lately. Most notably, I decided to quit my job, due to being promised a promotion that never came. They hired an outside teacher and also made another facilitator a "substitute teacher" (which is really crappy for her, because it means more work for her yet it's not really a promotion). My last day will be May 11.

I had to work yesterday (Saturday) to make up for one of the snow days we had back in February. I had a feeling that some of the comments and actions of the program directors of the school were related to the fact that I had quit earlier in the week. They said something about letting us all "in on the process a bit too much" and also said something about how they had been too generous in the past in giving raises and promotions to people who were unhappy and came in to talk with them. They felt it necessary to give us all gift cards to Starbucks and tell us all how appreciated we are. I expected to have to come in and clean on Saturday and I'm glad that didn't happen. They have made us clean the school on teacher work days in the past...and they were really anal about little details. They inspected the rooms after we finished and came up with a list of complaints about them. We had to fix the rooms that day before they let us have lunch. We were also told that we had 15 minutes to get our lunch and come back, which is ridiculous because then we came back afterwards and literally sat around the last half of the day. They didn't really need us there for anything. You'd think they could show us some appreciation by allowing us an hour lunch on a day without students. You'd also think they'd show that they take us seriously by providing employees (who are all college graduates) with some actual training and education on these days instead of making us do janitorial work (we do have a janitor, by the way...).

Blah. Whatever...it's all over with now.

I don't know what I'm going to do next. I'm feeling pretty disillusioned about working with people. I used to say that I wanted a job that would help people. Now I'm not so sure...

Jake and I walked to Safeway this week because I felt like getting some ice cream. Overhearing the conversations that went on there made me depressed about the state of humanity. There was a man in our checkout lane who was talking loudly about (of all things) hunting geese. He thought it was a waste of time and effort. He said something like, "First, you have two thousand dollars worth of guns and ammunition. Then, you have to have camo. That's another thousand dollars. Then, you have to take days off work to go. That's another thousand dollars. You're better off buying four thousand dollars of goose meat from the store. It's all cleaned and everything for you." Wow. I have no idea how this guy estimated the cost of hunting...and I don't know where he's going to buy four thousand dollars worth of goose meat. Are there factory farms that raise geese? A woman (who mentioned that she was 67 years old) in the lane next to us overheard the guy talking about geese and she said that geese could be very mean. She said she was trying to touch some geese babies and the mother goose came after her. I just rolled my eyes. What do you expect lady? A wild animal is just going to let you mess around with its young? How can you not have learned in 67 years on this earth that animals will defend their babies? So, yeah, I'm convinced there are far too many idiots walking around out there. Why would I ever want to help people?

It's Friday the 13th...and it feels like it.

Today was a crazy day at work. Every kid was pretty much going off. I'm really dreading going back in on Monday because we're supposed to be getting three new students. I haven't heard that we're getting any more staff. We are all going to be so screwed. One of the program managers (basically one of my bosses...) is quitting and moving to Texas at the end of next week. That's going to screw us over even more. I'm so jealous that he's getting out of the job. I want to get out of this job.


I'm happy that I got to come home and see everyone last week, but it feels like it went by really quickly. I also feel like I had to deal with lots of wedding planning poo, so it wasn't as much of a vacation as I'd hoped it would be. I made myself all depressed that I didn't get everything out of my vacation that I hoped I would. On the day I left my parents' house, I got really stressed out and cried a lot. I wish I could explain this more...if I had more time to sit down and write about it, I would...

I have 10 minutes to cover the other stuff I want to talk about here before I have to leave the house...

Hauling back wedding shower gifts was stressful. There is a 50 lb. weight limit on bags at the airport, and our bags weighed in at 49 lbs and 47 lbs. We left a lot of stuff behind in Wisconsin. We'll have to load it up in the car when we drive out in July.

I'm trying to figure out something to look forward to before the wedding happens. I need stuff to keep me going. I was hoping Maria was going to come visit in May, but now she has to start her new job. Darn. I really want someone to come visit. I don't have a lot of room in my apartment, but I'm sure I could have someone stay here... I promise I would make the visit totally awesome. I'd plan lots of cool stuff. Someone? Anyone?

I have to write a lot of thank yous. I really need to get on that. Our wedding invitations should be coming in the mail soon, too...so when those come I'll have to work on those as well. I hope they turn out okay. The old lady we bought them from seemed really confused. She honestly had to add the total cost of our invitation bill four times before she came out with the right number. I really just wanted to do it for her...

Alrightie...I just wanted to try to put up a quick update. I feel like I'm behind with everything right now. Our apartment is a total mess. We need to take stuff to Goodwill this weekend because there isn't space for our old things as well as the new stuff we got at the wedding shower.